Well, I never said it would get exciting right away did I?
Yea, today wasn't very exciting. :( Unfortunately, didn't talk to Master and basically just did more work. I'm pretty stressed out right now. :S Mistress has given me some leeway to help me out, which was great and I'm still very thankful that Master have my butt a break from the beatings.
I need to talk to Master :)
Slutty
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
March 10th
Today wasn't overly exciting.
I did a bit of studying, did the dishes for Mistress, and got to "sweep" the floor again. Doing dishes was actually quite a bit of fun, as I was allowed to get off my knees.
Really....this is the worst update ever. Next time....I swear to you, it will be more exciting. TRUST ME.
And thank you for reading!!! Master and I appreciate it.
Sluttay
I did a bit of studying, did the dishes for Mistress, and got to "sweep" the floor again. Doing dishes was actually quite a bit of fun, as I was allowed to get off my knees.
Really....this is the worst update ever. Next time....I swear to you, it will be more exciting. TRUST ME.
And thank you for reading!!! Master and I appreciate it.
Sluttay
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
March 8th/9th
Wow, I'm sorry!
I've been wallowing in a semi deep pile of midterm poo the past couple days. It's been a blast.
I swear blogger has it out for me, I actually was going to blog on time last night but I lost my entire post, and it was late and I had classes early today so I didn't redo it. Sorry, Master!
Mistress has given me a lot of leeway the past two days. She's been gone almost all the time, but I've followed my rules when she's gone. It's been great being able to have a normal meal! Anyways, she's been fine with me just doing work a lot and I've been busy studying at school and stuff tooo. The first update I missed was the night before a midterm and I lost track of time studying all day. Mistress punished me a little the next day by leaving my boobs tied tight most of the day but she said she couldn't really get into punishing me properly.
I just sat on the floor doing work most of the day and studying when I was in my room, which was rare. I've followed all my rules and hopefully can talk to Master before he goes to bed tonight.
Slutty
I've been wallowing in a semi deep pile of midterm poo the past couple days. It's been a blast.
I swear blogger has it out for me, I actually was going to blog on time last night but I lost my entire post, and it was late and I had classes early today so I didn't redo it. Sorry, Master!
Mistress has given me a lot of leeway the past two days. She's been gone almost all the time, but I've followed my rules when she's gone. It's been great being able to have a normal meal! Anyways, she's been fine with me just doing work a lot and I've been busy studying at school and stuff tooo. The first update I missed was the night before a midterm and I lost track of time studying all day. Mistress punished me a little the next day by leaving my boobs tied tight most of the day but she said she couldn't really get into punishing me properly.
I just sat on the floor doing work most of the day and studying when I was in my room, which was rare. I've followed all my rules and hopefully can talk to Master before he goes to bed tonight.
Slutty
Saturday, March 7, 2009
March 6th
Hi,
Mistress used me some today. I was left as a footstool for a few hours under Master's orders and had to scrub the floor with a brush in my mouth while handcuffed. :P It was fun but really humiliating!
Master and I talked late last night and he decided to give me a break on the ass beatings :) I was happy over that, because they are ridiculously painful at this point. The trade off of it though is that I must wear itching powder in my bra and underwear when I'm outside my dorm, although I am allowed to scratch. The problem is that I can only scratch my crotch when standing so if I'm in class I have to stand up to itch. :( It really sucks, I'm going to make a fool out of myself.
We're also continuing with the whole trial of complete control for another week. Before I went to bed Master had me squish my boobs with 2 stick and hold each end tight together with elastic bands! It's been a fantasy of mine for a while and I enjoyed, even though it was painful. Master was also going to have me gagged overnight for the first time with a wooden spoon pushed into my teeth and elastic bands stretched from each end around my head but I started feeling horrible and Master let me release my boobs and sleep ungagged in his bed! :)
I felt a lot better in the morning so thank you Master!
Slutty
Mistress used me some today. I was left as a footstool for a few hours under Master's orders and had to scrub the floor with a brush in my mouth while handcuffed. :P It was fun but really humiliating!
Master and I talked late last night and he decided to give me a break on the ass beatings :) I was happy over that, because they are ridiculously painful at this point. The trade off of it though is that I must wear itching powder in my bra and underwear when I'm outside my dorm, although I am allowed to scratch. The problem is that I can only scratch my crotch when standing so if I'm in class I have to stand up to itch. :( It really sucks, I'm going to make a fool out of myself.
We're also continuing with the whole trial of complete control for another week. Before I went to bed Master had me squish my boobs with 2 stick and hold each end tight together with elastic bands! It's been a fantasy of mine for a while and I enjoyed, even though it was painful. Master was also going to have me gagged overnight for the first time with a wooden spoon pushed into my teeth and elastic bands stretched from each end around my head but I started feeling horrible and Master let me release my boobs and sleep ungagged in his bed! :)
I felt a lot better in the morning so thank you Master!
Slutty
Thursday, March 5, 2009
March 5th
I did my 500 lashes when I woke up this morning and my ass is toast. The fuckings have been really bad too...not fun at all. Thankfully, my drool cereal was delicious as always! ;)
Master and I started talking around 3 today which is pretty early for us. We got talking about fantasies and I'm amazed at his creativity. He thought up a couple fantasies that fit mine perfectly, I'm lucky. :)
I asked to get food during the afternoon and took longer than allowed so I had 10 icecubes in my pussy for a while, which was HORRIBLE! Worst punishment ever.
After that I was tied up by my roommate as a shelf, based on a fantasy I had divulged earlier. I was in my highest heels with my legs bound together against a wall and saran wrapped around the knees and ankles. My arms were out so I was shaped like a T and the were saran wrapped and taped as well. In my hands and mouth were 5 and 3 lb weights and my boobs were tied with excess rope on the sides held down by more 5 lb weights lol. It was really painful. I also had 10 tacks in each boob and a clothespin on each nipple. My boobs and stomach were also left unwrapped. My ears were plugged and of course itching powder was spread on my boobs.
Every little while, my roomie would come into my room and beat my thighs/stomach/boobs with a metal ruler which had me dropping my weight a couple times because I opened my mouth to scream. The pain was really bad especially in my boobs! Later on 10 clothespins were added to each boob and my mouth weight was removed to make way for my mayo coated penis gag. :S
I was eventually released but that's when the big news came lol. My roommate and Master decided that my roomie could be my Mistress and control me at home when my Master isn't online. Master told her she has a lot of control so she's allowed to make me do pretty much anything whether that be a footstool, maid service, a beating, etc. She's not going to be really hardcore I don't think but I'll still be kept busy I think. Master and her were talking and he had me sit by her feet and refer to her as Mistress, which felt really weird! But anyways, my one rule of always being caged when Master is not using me has been changed now because my Mistress will be using me or having me do something. Obviously, Master still is my true owner but my Mistress will also be controlling me a lot now too. I'm really being turned into a slave/object at this point, it feels great constantly being on my knees and working to please and humiliate myself. Plus it's nice not to have to hide this part of my life from my new Mistress. I love being a slave. :)
Slutty
Master and I started talking around 3 today which is pretty early for us. We got talking about fantasies and I'm amazed at his creativity. He thought up a couple fantasies that fit mine perfectly, I'm lucky. :)
I asked to get food during the afternoon and took longer than allowed so I had 10 icecubes in my pussy for a while, which was HORRIBLE! Worst punishment ever.
After that I was tied up by my roommate as a shelf, based on a fantasy I had divulged earlier. I was in my highest heels with my legs bound together against a wall and saran wrapped around the knees and ankles. My arms were out so I was shaped like a T and the were saran wrapped and taped as well. In my hands and mouth were 5 and 3 lb weights and my boobs were tied with excess rope on the sides held down by more 5 lb weights lol. It was really painful. I also had 10 tacks in each boob and a clothespin on each nipple. My boobs and stomach were also left unwrapped. My ears were plugged and of course itching powder was spread on my boobs.
Every little while, my roomie would come into my room and beat my thighs/stomach/boobs with a metal ruler which had me dropping my weight a couple times because I opened my mouth to scream. The pain was really bad especially in my boobs! Later on 10 clothespins were added to each boob and my mouth weight was removed to make way for my mayo coated penis gag. :S
I was eventually released but that's when the big news came lol. My roommate and Master decided that my roomie could be my Mistress and control me at home when my Master isn't online. Master told her she has a lot of control so she's allowed to make me do pretty much anything whether that be a footstool, maid service, a beating, etc. She's not going to be really hardcore I don't think but I'll still be kept busy I think. Master and her were talking and he had me sit by her feet and refer to her as Mistress, which felt really weird! But anyways, my one rule of always being caged when Master is not using me has been changed now because my Mistress will be using me or having me do something. Obviously, Master still is my true owner but my Mistress will also be controlling me a lot now too. I'm really being turned into a slave/object at this point, it feels great constantly being on my knees and working to please and humiliate myself. Plus it's nice not to have to hide this part of my life from my new Mistress. I love being a slave. :)
Slutty
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
March 4
Tonight Master had a big heart to heart and it was great....GREAT i tell you!
We don't do it barely ever and Master doesn't show his emotions much so it was a good talk to have.
I went all sappy and I know anyone that reads this sees that I'm horrible with blog updates but I really do care. It is an online relationship I know, but I really care for Master A LOT, like I actually almost started crying while we were talking. :P He's great to me and I appreciate the little things in life a lot more now that he owns me. I just wanted to tell him how much he means to me and that slavery is more to me than just "do this, do that" and he really makes me want to obey and please him which is why I wish I was there with him so I could see him smile at me and have all the motivation I'd ever need to serve him. :)
It's hard for me to hand over control to so much of my life and put a lot of faith in him but he's been amazing and I'm really happy things have worked out well so far. Hopefully, I'll be at his feet someday. :) He told me that I was giving him my greatest gift by giving my life and my body for him to use and own and I'm really glad he feels that way since like I said, he doesn't show his emotions much.
Oh, I should mention that the whole reason we started talking heart to heart was because I was ordered to show my roommate my tacked boobs lol. Reallllllly embarrassing!! But anyways, I was putting my penis gag back on as I went back to my room and saw myself in the bathroom mirror and it everything hit me, as cliche as that is. I looked really pathetic standing there naked with a plastic cock in my mouth and my body all tortured and in a way I felt ashamed inside but it's also so amazing be able to do this and that's really just the humiliation talking. Being a slave means the world to me, and I'm glad Master is my guide. :)
Slutty
We don't do it barely ever and Master doesn't show his emotions much so it was a good talk to have.
I went all sappy and I know anyone that reads this sees that I'm horrible with blog updates but I really do care. It is an online relationship I know, but I really care for Master A LOT, like I actually almost started crying while we were talking. :P He's great to me and I appreciate the little things in life a lot more now that he owns me. I just wanted to tell him how much he means to me and that slavery is more to me than just "do this, do that" and he really makes me want to obey and please him which is why I wish I was there with him so I could see him smile at me and have all the motivation I'd ever need to serve him. :)
It's hard for me to hand over control to so much of my life and put a lot of faith in him but he's been amazing and I'm really happy things have worked out well so far. Hopefully, I'll be at his feet someday. :) He told me that I was giving him my greatest gift by giving my life and my body for him to use and own and I'm really glad he feels that way since like I said, he doesn't show his emotions much.
Oh, I should mention that the whole reason we started talking heart to heart was because I was ordered to show my roommate my tacked boobs lol. Reallllllly embarrassing!! But anyways, I was putting my penis gag back on as I went back to my room and saw myself in the bathroom mirror and it everything hit me, as cliche as that is. I looked really pathetic standing there naked with a plastic cock in my mouth and my body all tortured and in a way I felt ashamed inside but it's also so amazing be able to do this and that's really just the humiliation talking. Being a slave means the world to me, and I'm glad Master is my guide. :)
Slutty
Ampin' it up!
Hey boys and girls,
Master and talked yesterday about my mummification and about the possibility of me not having walking, clothing, and furniture priviledges in my entire rez room now that my roomie knows, so that I would constantly be humiliated and have no chance to be normal until I left my room. She wasn't sure if she was comfortable with that so we'll have to see.
I showed Master this slave mantra yesterday, that really interested me and I thought it summed up my loves in this lifestyle well even though its pretty extreme. Here it is!
This whore is worthless, not fit to be anything but a toy for pain and humiliation from it's Owner. It deserves to be hurt, to be marked, to be abused. this slut belongs completely to it's Owner. It has no choice, no voice, nothing unless He deems appropriate for it to have it. This pig is a nasty, dirty, worthless piece of meat, that deserves not even a name, it is purely an object for it's Owner's amusement. It deserves to be whipped, beaten, raped, humiliated, pierced, cut, caned, whatever Master deems it worthy of. It doesn't deserve to be a 'female' when in it's Owner's presence. It was made to suffer, meant to suffer, and shall only suffer through it's existence as enslaved meat. It is pathetic, it doesn't deserve to walk on two feet, to wear clothes, it only deserves to be treated as the animal it is, and kept in constant agony to remind it of it's worthlessness. It deserves nothing that it's Owner doesn't allow it, it deserves to have every single moment of it's pathetic life to be controlled by Another. By it's Master and Owner. it lives, breaths, pisses, shits, exists.. purely because it's Owner finds it amusing, and allows it to.
Like I said, it's hardcore but I showed it to Master and so we're going to try to move in that direction. At first I wanted to try that all the time but Master was telling me that I'd have no limits and he would control me almost completely. So we're going a 3-4 day trial of it to see how it goes. Because of that, Master added a few new rules on top of the existing ones.
1. I do NOTHING without permission. I'm allowed to go to class, do homework, eat sleep, and use the washroom without it other than that I remain caged logged in to msn awaiting any instructions or to ask permission. I have to ask for permission to make plans ahead of time.
2. I am to give Master my class schedule and any required meetings or plans.
3. If Master is online and we're talking I must ask to do ANYTHING. I can't say brb and leave, I need permission to do anything.
4. 500 lashes to each ass cheek in the morning as soon as I wake up, followed by a 5 minute nonstop ass fucking with my plug. The fucking must be repeated 5 times a day and I must do another 500 lashes before I go to sleep.
5. I must cover each nipple in toothpaste each morning and reapply it every 6 hours until I go to sleep.
6. I must blog everyday. If I fail to do so, I must live with a toothpaste coated plug the following day.
7. I will edge with my vibe 10 times a day, and never cum unless granted permission by Master. I must get as close as I can and then stop right away. 3 of the edges have to be in public, even if it's a public washroom.
My buttplug now is staying in my butt permanently, only coming out to torture my ass. :( I'm getting more used to it so its not as bad now but it still makes me quite sore and is really uncomfortable.
Master was about to start abusing my boobs when I disrespected him by forgetting to call him Master and punished with having my boobs roped tight and 200 hits with a wooden spatula to each, 50 of them going to my nipples. :( It was pretty horrible and the tops of my boobs are still really raw right now. Then Master had me run clothespins on my boobs, rib cage, pussy lips, etc and had a string running through the springs of each so I had to rip them all off at once after I had started writing this blog entry!! It was pure torture and it really pulled on my pussy lips and boobs pulling them off especially since there were clothespins in the spots where I had just beaten myself. :(
Master had decided with the new rules that I wouldn't be allowed a single normal meal anymore but I started throwing up last night for a few hours, it was really bad. Mostly from lack of nutrition and food I guess, so now Master is letting me eat a bit more normally for the next couple days as I recover. Thankfully, I still get a lovely bowl of drool cereal to snap me to my senses every morning lol.
P.S. Here's the link to my Master's blog about owning me...for a different perspective.
lifeofamaster.blogspot.com
Slutty
Master and talked yesterday about my mummification and about the possibility of me not having walking, clothing, and furniture priviledges in my entire rez room now that my roomie knows, so that I would constantly be humiliated and have no chance to be normal until I left my room. She wasn't sure if she was comfortable with that so we'll have to see.
I showed Master this slave mantra yesterday, that really interested me and I thought it summed up my loves in this lifestyle well even though its pretty extreme. Here it is!
This whore is worthless, not fit to be anything but a toy for pain and humiliation from it's Owner. It deserves to be hurt, to be marked, to be abused. this slut belongs completely to it's Owner. It has no choice, no voice, nothing unless He deems appropriate for it to have it. This pig is a nasty, dirty, worthless piece of meat, that deserves not even a name, it is purely an object for it's Owner's amusement. It deserves to be whipped, beaten, raped, humiliated, pierced, cut, caned, whatever Master deems it worthy of. It doesn't deserve to be a 'female' when in it's Owner's presence. It was made to suffer, meant to suffer, and shall only suffer through it's existence as enslaved meat. It is pathetic, it doesn't deserve to walk on two feet, to wear clothes, it only deserves to be treated as the animal it is, and kept in constant agony to remind it of it's worthlessness. It deserves nothing that it's Owner doesn't allow it, it deserves to have every single moment of it's pathetic life to be controlled by Another. By it's Master and Owner. it lives, breaths, pisses, shits, exists.. purely because it's Owner finds it amusing, and allows it to.
Like I said, it's hardcore but I showed it to Master and so we're going to try to move in that direction. At first I wanted to try that all the time but Master was telling me that I'd have no limits and he would control me almost completely. So we're going a 3-4 day trial of it to see how it goes. Because of that, Master added a few new rules on top of the existing ones.
1. I do NOTHING without permission. I'm allowed to go to class, do homework, eat sleep, and use the washroom without it other than that I remain caged logged in to msn awaiting any instructions or to ask permission. I have to ask for permission to make plans ahead of time.
2. I am to give Master my class schedule and any required meetings or plans.
3. If Master is online and we're talking I must ask to do ANYTHING. I can't say brb and leave, I need permission to do anything.
4. 500 lashes to each ass cheek in the morning as soon as I wake up, followed by a 5 minute nonstop ass fucking with my plug. The fucking must be repeated 5 times a day and I must do another 500 lashes before I go to sleep.
5. I must cover each nipple in toothpaste each morning and reapply it every 6 hours until I go to sleep.
6. I must blog everyday. If I fail to do so, I must live with a toothpaste coated plug the following day.
7. I will edge with my vibe 10 times a day, and never cum unless granted permission by Master. I must get as close as I can and then stop right away. 3 of the edges have to be in public, even if it's a public washroom.
My buttplug now is staying in my butt permanently, only coming out to torture my ass. :( I'm getting more used to it so its not as bad now but it still makes me quite sore and is really uncomfortable.
Master was about to start abusing my boobs when I disrespected him by forgetting to call him Master and punished with having my boobs roped tight and 200 hits with a wooden spatula to each, 50 of them going to my nipples. :( It was pretty horrible and the tops of my boobs are still really raw right now. Then Master had me run clothespins on my boobs, rib cage, pussy lips, etc and had a string running through the springs of each so I had to rip them all off at once after I had started writing this blog entry!! It was pure torture and it really pulled on my pussy lips and boobs pulling them off especially since there were clothespins in the spots where I had just beaten myself. :(
Master had decided with the new rules that I wouldn't be allowed a single normal meal anymore but I started throwing up last night for a few hours, it was really bad. Mostly from lack of nutrition and food I guess, so now Master is letting me eat a bit more normally for the next couple days as I recover. Thankfully, I still get a lovely bowl of drool cereal to snap me to my senses every morning lol.
P.S. Here's the link to my Master's blog about owning me...for a different perspective.
lifeofamaster.blogspot.com
Slutty
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