Redeeming Myself

Hi anyone reading!

Once again, I've just been horrible with updates and I spoke to Master tonight since we haven't talked in a bit and he almost disowned me. I swear I'm turning this into a soap opera! I'm going to be punished harshly tomorrow and I deserve it, at this point if I don't keep up with my blog and my rules, then I will be disowned so I've got to get it together. 

I really love being a slave and Master, even when mad has been really nice and good to me and I feel really bad that I keep fucking up. So from now on I'll be updating nightly when at all possible (imagine that!) and umm I hope anyone is still willing to read my pathetic story lol. I'm half drunk right now....hope this is coherent. I'm going to be a good girl for Master, and I hope there are still a couple people that read this! If you do, then please comment and humiliate me if you want, I deserve it. Master told me that I've almost failed at being a slave, which is truly pathetic. Goooodnight! xox

Slutty

Whoooops!!

OMG,

My laptop and I suck. My apologies to readers and Master.

I'm wayyy behind. I missed a couple entries and was punished but until tonight, hadn't talked to Master since the 15th/16th (?) because my laptop died :( 5 bucks says it was limewire! :P 

Anyways...I've been trying to follow orders as well as I could without a computer so I ate most of my meals like a dog and slept on the floor. Much of my last week was spent doing work, I had to catch up on schoolwork a bit. :( I really need to invest in knee padsI was sickish one night and slept on my bed lol, not a good decision. I'm typing this from my cage with my penis gag and buttplug in, and my punishment is sleeping in my cramped cage. :( I talked to Master a few hours ago and was left caged while he was out partying like a normal person lol. I was allowed to use the washroom once but ate while I was out of my cage, so Master was angry about that...I'm NOT good with gray areas! :P I've probably hit the backspace button 5000 times so far...can't type well with arms cuffed through bars! 

Since I've made a few mistakes, Master has made a new rule to help me understand that I'm just an object for his amusement. He said that if he wants my buttplug in or wants me caged, I'm not allowed to remove it or do anything until he gives me permission. He also wants me wearing my buttplug 24/7 until I am given permission to remove it! :( My butt is already sore so hopefully Master will not make it too long term. 

Thank you to any readers!! I hope my writing is at least somewhat amusing :)

Slutty

January 11th

Woof Woof!

This is going to be a short post because I didn't talk to Master all day :( I got up late and between seeing friends and partying tonight back at my college residence, I ate almost all of my meals like a dog. I mentioned that at rez I can lock my door, so I have great privacy...plus I can eat on my own schedule (or Master's) versus my parent's. I had fajitas at home before going back to rez (omg delish!) and I had to munch out of my doggie bowl for the rest of the night. My knees have gotten a bit raw from being on my knees and sometimes I really wish I had privilege to stand in my room, but I'm getting better at putting that in the back of my mind and being content with my submission. I want to make Master proud. The more I've done this and talked with Master has made me view myself as a dog than a human being at times, and it's amazing! I am so in love with this lifestyle :)

The worst part of today was that I had to endure a cold shower in the morning. :( Master had made it clear that I was not allowed to get out of it by taking a very fast shower, turning it to only moderately cold, or standing out of the way of the water. So I basically froze for 15 minutes. Maybe it wasn't THAT bad but it was very very cold and I was shivering and cursing to myself the whole time. 

Told you it would be short! I hope any readers can see a bit of a transformation...from girl to dog ha! Luvs :)

Slutty

January 10th

I woke up in the morning a bit sore as usual, with the odd mark from sleeping on the floor. I was at my parent's for the weekend, so I had to be a bit more careful because I can't lock my bedroom door and my parents are nosy. Throughout the day, I didn't do much in the way of pet-type things. I had a small snack in the afternoon and ate it in my bowl, and I always lapped up my drinks. My buttplug continued to annoy me so I was hoping to get my time with it in lessened. 

I met Master online at around 9pm and about 30 minutes later, I was put in my cage. This time was different though. I mentioned the details of my predicament in my "Punishments" entry. 

I forgot to mention though that I had my vibrator in as well while I typed up my entry and it made it very hard to type quickly, along with the way my hands were cuffed and wedged through my bars. If I came while I was writing up my entry, I would be left in my cage all night. Master allowed me a 5 minute break from the vibe, but in return I would have to kneel in the corner after my caging for an hour with 20 clothespins on each breast! I took it and tried to get through as much typing as I could without the vibe in me. Master ultimately offered me 5 breaks for which each one added 20 minutes and 10 clothespins to my kneeling later. I ended up taking 2 more breaks!! I was very close to cumming near the end so I had to take constant breaks to avoid it. Thankfully, Master let me take away the 20 minutes on my last break so I my kneeling would 1 hour and 40 minutes with 20 clothespins on each boob, 5 on each of my pussy lips, 5 on each of my inner thighs, and 1 on my tongue, 3 on each side of my ribcage, 1 on the bridge of my nose, and 1 on each earlobe! I basically cried a little thinking about it but I didn't want to be caged all night either. 

I am lucky to have such a nice Master. He approved of my entry and let me out of my cage and allowed me to finally remove my buttplug!! Yay! :) Master also put my vibe in on high and I was allowed to cum once I begged for it. I hadn't been relieved in quite a while, it felt amazing! I went limp for a couple minutes :) Master also allowed me to sleep in my bed for the first time in several days! It was well worth it. Now I'm just dreading my kneeling, because I was having a friend over after my caging and I had to do my daily blog regardless. Unfortunately, since my friend was over, I will now do my kneeling when I talk to Master next and since this is late I think it'll be twice as long and double the pins!!! I really hope not!

PS. Thank you everyone who is reading this! I'm not a very good writer but I enjoy doing this because my life as a slave has been amazing thus far. Like Master said, any comments would be appreciated! Luvs

Slutty

Punishments

I've made some mistakes and Master has already punished me 4 times. His punishments are quite harsh but they force me to learn from my mistakes. I'm in my cage right now typing this. My hands are through the front bars, handcuffed as well while I type. I'm not allowed to take out my buttplug until Tuesday, but if Master think's I've learned from my mistakes I will be allowed to take it out and will be let out of my cage. If I fail, I must sleep plugged in my small cage! :( 

1. My first punishment was cumming without permission. I couldn't resist from cumming with my vibe in me but Master hadn't given me permission. I was punished by drooling in my bowl for several hours while Master left me in solitude for a couple hours, then i had to eat cereal with the bowl-full worth of drool serving as my milk. I had to eat it like a dog as well and it was disgusting! I never want to do that again, I will try my absolute best to refrain from cumming without Master's permission. The rule is important because I'm nothing but property, and Master's pleasure and amusement is important not mine. I don't deserve to feel pleasure unless Master thinks that I have earned it. 

2. My second punishment was for disrespecting Master. I did not refer to him properly a couple times, so I was left gagged for most of the day as punishment. My jaw was very sore when Master finally decided to ungag me. I love the gag but long terms tough and referring to my Master properly is not asking much of me so I've learned my lesson. I wish I hadn't made such a dumb mistake in the first place! It's a very fair rule because my Master deserves that respect and I need to better learn my place.

3. My buttplug is in until Tuesday because I was bad and took it out before my Master instructed. I wasn't sure if I could, so I did because my bum was really sore. I still have 2 days to go and my butt is very very sore. I've learned now to only listen to my Master's word and not just finish if I'm not sure. It is a good rule because I have to just listen to my Master and assume nothing. I really shouldn't think for myself in these situations ha. 

4. I didn't update this blog for 2 days and Master's punishment was to have only cold showers for 3 days! Cold showers are horrible, I'm not looking forward to those. I've definitely learned my lesson because I enjoy doing this blog and the humiliation of it too, so I need to not do this again. I think the rule is fair because I simply updating my blog regularly is not a tough task.

Slutty

First Days as a slave

It has been 2 weeks since Master first took ownership of me. Since then, I have served him online and learned a lot about being a good slave. Master started off by setting rules that I now live by. For example, I am not allowed to touch myself without Master's permission. I can no longer sleep in my bed unless Master grants that priviledge. I sleep on the floor with a pillow and blankets naked because I'm just property and I haven't earned such priviledges. I refer to him as Master as a sign of respect. 

In serving Master, I'm just as much of a pet as I am a slave. He gave me a pet name "Slutty" and set rules no that I am not allowed to stand or wear clothes in my bedroom. I now eat and drink like a dog as well. When Master allows me to eat, I get on my elbows and knees and eat with my hands on the floor. It is very degrading but that's why I like it; eating is usually a very messy experience now! I have my own ballgag, penis gag, buttplug, vibe and regularly use clothespins, handcuffs, and tape too. I have my buttplug in a lot and am slowly getting better at tolerating it. The first time I put it in I practically cried! 

Master knows that I enjoy drooling so I often wear my ballgag. A couple nights ago, as a punishment, I was left alone for a few hours on all fours while bound and plugged. I had a bowl under my mouth and by the time Master came back, the bowl was almost full with drool! Unfortunately, that meant eating cereal with the drool serving as my milk! It was disgusting, so I learnt my lesson. I also have a cage hidden away in my dorm, and Master sometimes will leave me in my cage plugged, gagged, cuffed and with my vibe on high or medium setting. Getting in the cage is a tight fit, and the vibe makes me want to move and struggle, only to knock the cage on its side! 

I've been quite obedient so far today. I slept on the floor as ordered, and have eaten like a dog. I've still got some marks from sleeping on the floor, and my butt feels like it's about to burst from the plug but I hope that Master will remove it soon! I have been punished a bit recently because I have not done well in holding back from cumming and I had forgotten to email him on a couple occasions. Thankfully, I haven't had to endure any cold showers so it could be worse!

Slutty